It's been a year

Well, today marks a year since one of the most saddest days of my life. I guess I feel like I'm not over him yet and that is why I cry.

But enough of this. Enough of this wimpyness coming from me. I WILL MOVE ON. Obviously he didn't care as much for me as I cared for him. Why else would I be the one hurting while he is the one having fun? Why am I a fool? Why do I do this to myself? I know I am stronger than this, but where is that part of my personality when I need it the most? Where is the strong girl who can be strong no matter the situation?

I've decided I want a new me. I want to become someone that I'm not ashamed of being. That's what I am now. I'm ashamed at myself because of him. Because of him, I've become quite weak I would say. I will get better. I just have to keep telling myself this over and over. If I wish for it hard enough, it might come true.

Speaking of wishes. I started a new blog. You can fine it here. It's all about the wishes I have for myself. Hopefully, by the end of my senior year, I'll have finished 1000 wishes. Then I can open my wishes and see how far I've come from this sniffling little weakling that I am. I am very hopeful for this blog. I really hope that I can post on it every time I fold a new wish star.

I want to stick to that blog even though this blog and my bookreader's blog is pretty sad since i've practically abandoned them for my tumblr (which you can find here) <---- lol, that's my backup blog. I have another blog that I refuse to show anyone. You'll just have to find it yourself. Here's a hint though, it has nothing to do with ninjas. How stupid would I be to have a blog just like this one? I know for sure there is a ninjainc on tumblr, but that's not me. I'm not the type of person to have the same name for everything :P

Although I'm still loving you, I will be able to stop and move on.

And on that note, I leave you blog post.