Tuesday, October 4, 2011

Fake it until you make it

I have never gotten that phrase. I mean, people want you to be fake? If all people listened to this "advice" how could people tell the real people apart from the Barbies and Kens? Not everyone is perfect. A person should not be fake at all. Of course, that is easier said than done. I mean, people should not act fake at all just to "get further" in life. Really, those people aren't getting further in life at all. If a person lies and embellishes their resume (we all do it sometimes right?) and gets hired then that person may have gotten "further" but would they be happy? Wouldn't they be guilty that their job started off on lies? Would they be happy that they deceived their boss? Why would a person want to be fake? I happen to find that this happens a lot in high school.

I know with peer pressure and everything, people be fake to blend in with the crowd. Who wants to blend in? Why not be different? When people are mostly loud, why not be the quiet one? Why hid behind another image of yourself? That never gives the real you a chance to shine. It never lets people know who you really are. How can you expect to find the real friends that aren't fake also? Fake people don't have real friends. They have backstabbing, equally fake friends. Those aren't friends. They're more like enemies. Fake friends aren't really there for you when you need them. What is the point of being fake? What is the point of being fake especially in relationships and friendships? There is no point. I dare you. Come up with an extremely bullet hole, loop hole reason why someone would want to be a fake person? If people just stop judging, then maybe those fake people don't have to be fake anymore. Maybe they can just be their normal selves. I have to admit, sometimes i feel like a fake person, like i'm putting on an act. I feel like this during school. I'm such a quiet person. It's in my nature, but sometimes, i feel that i'm putting on that act. If you're my real friend, you would know sometimes i'm anything but quiet. I have such a loud personality that it scares people when i let it show. I don't know, it's just me. I'm just me. It's not my fault that i happen to be an extremely shy loud person. I'm just a walking contradiction. I've always been a walking contradiction. I may be loud, quiet, crazy, amazing, stupid, depressing, everything but some people still love me for me. My friends do. The people who truly know me accept me for who I am. *note, off topic ranting that i always put about some specific person* I guess you never did. Maybe you lied to yourself that you loved me for me. If you did, then where are you now? Where are you when i needed you the most? Where were you yesterday when i was crying my eyes out? You were there before through my family problems. I trusted you as a friend before you were my boyfriend. Where the heck is that now? Where the heck is our friendship? You can still be friends with one of your ex ( i was absolutely fine with it) and you can't be friend with me? WHY? Why can't you care and try? Am i the only one who thinks these things? Am i the only one who cared at all in our relationship to miss one of my best friends? What is wrong with you? Just because you have a new girlfriend you think you can forget about me? about a girl who trusted you? You must look like a nice guy to all your other friends who are girls, but from my point of view, you are a jerk. A jerk who i love, but still a jerk. An absolute jerk.

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