Think of the last person who you know that died. You have the chance to give them 1 hour of life back, but you have to give up one year of yours. Do you do it? Why or Why not?
Well the last person that I know that died was either my great uncle or the grandpa of someone I know. Both happened around the same time so I am not sure which one died first. I haven't ever dealt with a close death. My grandpa on my dad's side died before I was born and my other grandparents have yet to pass (and I am hoping every single day that they don't anytime soon). I know for sure that if I had to give up one year of my life to bring back either of those people for 1 hour, there will be no question in my mind that I would accept the consequences. I am still young so I still have many years ahead of me. Giving up one year of my life wouldn't be a huge deal compared to having someone get to say things that they never said or do something that they never got to do. It would be worth it in my mind.
Tuesday, July 29, 2014
Monday, July 28, 2014
Deep Ass Question #8
8. Your best friend confesses that he/she has feelings for you more than just friendship. He/she is falling in love with you. What do you (or did you) do/say?
I am going to change this to friend because my best friend is in a committed relationship and that would just be weird.
Well if my friend confessed that he had feelings for me, I would friend zone him. If he's my friend, then I am probably comfortable around him. I would only see him as a friend and not someone I would date. There are people that I am friends with that I would NEVER date. If I am friends with a guy and I actually call him my friend and hang out with him a lot and tell him things, then in my mind he really isn't a guy. He becomes a girl in my mind. I know I am not wording this right because a lot of guys would be offended if I told them I don't see them as a guy (which I have done before and the guy is super nice and understanding so he wasn't offended, at least I don't think he was).
Okay, I have a very hard time talking to guys I find attractive. If I find a guy attractive and want to date him, I would probably not talk to him on my own. I mean I did have a crush on a guy for like five years and never once had a full on conversation with him because I am really that painfully shy. So, with that in mind if I am friends with a guy then he really isn't someone that I could see myself dating.
If I am overly chatty with a guy or I tell him things that I really should be only telling my girlfriends, he is not someone I would date. If he wanted to date me, I would shoot him down because I really would not be having any romantic thoughts about him. It's just how my mind works.
I know I am not explaining this well but I can't really explain my brain... I can't really pull up the right words.
Oh well.
I am going to change this to friend because my best friend is in a committed relationship and that would just be weird.
Well if my friend confessed that he had feelings for me, I would friend zone him. If he's my friend, then I am probably comfortable around him. I would only see him as a friend and not someone I would date. There are people that I am friends with that I would NEVER date. If I am friends with a guy and I actually call him my friend and hang out with him a lot and tell him things, then in my mind he really isn't a guy. He becomes a girl in my mind. I know I am not wording this right because a lot of guys would be offended if I told them I don't see them as a guy (which I have done before and the guy is super nice and understanding so he wasn't offended, at least I don't think he was).
Okay, I have a very hard time talking to guys I find attractive. If I find a guy attractive and want to date him, I would probably not talk to him on my own. I mean I did have a crush on a guy for like five years and never once had a full on conversation with him because I am really that painfully shy. So, with that in mind if I am friends with a guy then he really isn't someone that I could see myself dating.
If I am overly chatty with a guy or I tell him things that I really should be only telling my girlfriends, he is not someone I would date. If he wanted to date me, I would shoot him down because I really would not be having any romantic thoughts about him. It's just how my mind works.
I know I am not explaining this well but I can't really explain my brain... I can't really pull up the right words.
Oh well.
Time Boils the Rain
Oh my goodness, I am absolutely obsessed with Wu YiFan dinging Time Boils the Rain for Tiny Times 3 OST. His voice is awesome.
Anyway, I thought I would write this blog post on my feelings about Kris leaving EXO and my thoughts on SM Entertainment.
First off, I LOVE Kris. He is near the top of my bias list for EXO members (a lot of the times he is at the top) but in no way did I not do I now condone the timing of him suing SM and leaving EXO. I mean come on, he could have at least waited until after promotions instead of causing the whole group to rearrange themselves for performances and what not.
I don't like how he left SM but I am happy that he's happy now. I am not a delusional fan girl who will hate Kris for what he did to the rest of the EXO members because honestly, I don't think I can really hate Kris unless he did something illegal and like really bad (like sexual assault or really dating his married direct, which I will also talk about later). I am also not the delusional fan girl who still has hope that Kris will go back to being EXO-M's leader because it's clear that he's happy without being in SM.
I really hope that Wu YiFan will be able to stay friends with some of the members. I know they feel betrayed but they did train together and debut together. I wonder how they feel when they hear about Kris being in these movies and singing songs. Do they still feel betrayed or are they happy that their friend is happy? I am hoping it's the latter although I know it can take time to get over a betrayal.
Sometimes, I can't help but think that Kris leaving helped open up new doors for EXO. I have no idea if DO participating in It's Okay, That's Love and Chen participating in singing an OST song was because SM wanted to show Kris that he could have been in things if he stayed. Sometimes it feels like spite from SM (kind of like hey, you left and now we're letting your members participate in things they want to do or something like that). I know I am making my own assumptions but who really knows?
That's the real problem. We don't know the whole story so it's really hard to actually have like real opinions on solid facts. SM could have been controlling the member's instagrams (I was SO SAD when I saw that the members unfollower Kris but Kris was still following the members) or if everything went down the way that some people know. We just don't have all the facts.
Ugh, I am not butt hurt about this but I do have my own opinions on what happened. Again, I do not like the fact that Kris left. I do not like the time that he chose to leave. I just think that this is good for him. If he's not happy being in EXO then it would just make it harder on everyone if he did just stay for the benefit of the fans. I would rather Kris be happy than just putting on a facade in front of all his fans just to keep them happy.
Also, about the stupid thing that Kris is dating his director. I call bullshit. Like seriously? Unless he's trying to pull some kind of Kristen Stewart, I highly doubt he would date a woman who is in her forties and is married. like WTF are people trying to start? Unless there are some pictures or something as proof, I highly doubt that YiFan would do something like that. Any fan that actually believes that is stupid in my opinion because it isn't something that should even sound remotely like the truth unless there is hard evidence (like with Kristen Stewart).
I am just happy that Kris is happy. I really love his voice. I thought maybe he was another one of those people that SM recruited just for their looks and couldn't really sing so instead they had him rap but OMG KRIS'S VOICE IS LIKE SEX. I love deep voices, which is what attracted me to Kris in the first place but I thought he was just another rapper. I had NO idea that he could sing so nicely. SM, you did wrong by hiding such talent from us fans. I know with 12 members, there are many that get overshadowed. Lay is an awesome singer and composer and he really should be recognized for that. I mean Baekhyun's DO's and Chen's voices are like sex too but there are plenty of talented members in EXO that should get some spotlight time themselves sometimes. SM needs to stop playing favorites (and it is SO obvious that they do) and just have their idol's happiness in mind (because when the idols are happy we fans are happy).
This is like the end of my Kris/ Wu Yifan rant (I may or may not post my feelings on the Baekhyun dating Taeyeon if I feel like it later). My rant wasn't really organized but I support Kris when he was in EXO and I support Wu YiFan now that he's out of EXO. That doesn't mean I don't still support EXO because I do.
If EXO ends up slowly breaking down and the members go their separate ways, I will support each and every one of them in what they do because I feel like as an EXOtic and a fan of their music and voices it is something I must do.
I love OT12 but I also love OT11 and Wu YiFan.
Anyway, I thought I would write this blog post on my feelings about Kris leaving EXO and my thoughts on SM Entertainment.
First off, I LOVE Kris. He is near the top of my bias list for EXO members (a lot of the times he is at the top) but in no way did I not do I now condone the timing of him suing SM and leaving EXO. I mean come on, he could have at least waited until after promotions instead of causing the whole group to rearrange themselves for performances and what not.
I don't like how he left SM but I am happy that he's happy now. I am not a delusional fan girl who will hate Kris for what he did to the rest of the EXO members because honestly, I don't think I can really hate Kris unless he did something illegal and like really bad (like sexual assault or really dating his married direct, which I will also talk about later). I am also not the delusional fan girl who still has hope that Kris will go back to being EXO-M's leader because it's clear that he's happy without being in SM.
I really hope that Wu YiFan will be able to stay friends with some of the members. I know they feel betrayed but they did train together and debut together. I wonder how they feel when they hear about Kris being in these movies and singing songs. Do they still feel betrayed or are they happy that their friend is happy? I am hoping it's the latter although I know it can take time to get over a betrayal.
Sometimes, I can't help but think that Kris leaving helped open up new doors for EXO. I have no idea if DO participating in It's Okay, That's Love and Chen participating in singing an OST song was because SM wanted to show Kris that he could have been in things if he stayed. Sometimes it feels like spite from SM (kind of like hey, you left and now we're letting your members participate in things they want to do or something like that). I know I am making my own assumptions but who really knows?
That's the real problem. We don't know the whole story so it's really hard to actually have like real opinions on solid facts. SM could have been controlling the member's instagrams (I was SO SAD when I saw that the members unfollower Kris but Kris was still following the members) or if everything went down the way that some people know. We just don't have all the facts.
Ugh, I am not butt hurt about this but I do have my own opinions on what happened. Again, I do not like the fact that Kris left. I do not like the time that he chose to leave. I just think that this is good for him. If he's not happy being in EXO then it would just make it harder on everyone if he did just stay for the benefit of the fans. I would rather Kris be happy than just putting on a facade in front of all his fans just to keep them happy.
Also, about the stupid thing that Kris is dating his director. I call bullshit. Like seriously? Unless he's trying to pull some kind of Kristen Stewart, I highly doubt he would date a woman who is in her forties and is married. like WTF are people trying to start? Unless there are some pictures or something as proof, I highly doubt that YiFan would do something like that. Any fan that actually believes that is stupid in my opinion because it isn't something that should even sound remotely like the truth unless there is hard evidence (like with Kristen Stewart).
I am just happy that Kris is happy. I really love his voice. I thought maybe he was another one of those people that SM recruited just for their looks and couldn't really sing so instead they had him rap but OMG KRIS'S VOICE IS LIKE SEX. I love deep voices, which is what attracted me to Kris in the first place but I thought he was just another rapper. I had NO idea that he could sing so nicely. SM, you did wrong by hiding such talent from us fans. I know with 12 members, there are many that get overshadowed. Lay is an awesome singer and composer and he really should be recognized for that. I mean Baekhyun's DO's and Chen's voices are like sex too but there are plenty of talented members in EXO that should get some spotlight time themselves sometimes. SM needs to stop playing favorites (and it is SO obvious that they do) and just have their idol's happiness in mind (because when the idols are happy we fans are happy).
This is like the end of my Kris/ Wu Yifan rant (I may or may not post my feelings on the Baekhyun dating Taeyeon if I feel like it later). My rant wasn't really organized but I support Kris when he was in EXO and I support Wu YiFan now that he's out of EXO. That doesn't mean I don't still support EXO because I do.
If EXO ends up slowly breaking down and the members go their separate ways, I will support each and every one of them in what they do because I feel like as an EXOtic and a fan of their music and voices it is something I must do.
I love OT12 but I also love OT11 and Wu YiFan.
Thursday, July 17, 2014
Deep Ass Questions #7
The question is 7. Would you rather be hurt by the one you trust the most or the one you love the most?
Hmmmmm.... let me think about this.... would I want to be hurt by the one I trust the most.... or the one I love the most......
Well, I would like to think that the one I love the most (probs my significant other) would be the person I trust the most... but if that was not the case, I would rather be hurt by the one that I.... trust most. I don't trust easy so even if someone who I trusted hurt me, all that would do would betray my trust and then I will probably never speak to them again (kind of like what's going on in my life right now I guess) but I love way too easy. If someone I loved hurt me, I would be heartbroken for a REALLY long time. It'll take me a long time to be able to feel okay again.
Being hurt by people that I trust is a lot easier to deal with than if I was hurt by someone that I love (at least in my mind).
Hmmmmm.... let me think about this.... would I want to be hurt by the one I trust the most.... or the one I love the most......
Well, I would like to think that the one I love the most (probs my significant other) would be the person I trust the most... but if that was not the case, I would rather be hurt by the one that I.... trust most. I don't trust easy so even if someone who I trusted hurt me, all that would do would betray my trust and then I will probably never speak to them again (kind of like what's going on in my life right now I guess) but I love way too easy. If someone I loved hurt me, I would be heartbroken for a REALLY long time. It'll take me a long time to be able to feel okay again.
Being hurt by people that I trust is a lot easier to deal with than if I was hurt by someone that I love (at least in my mind).
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