Sometimes. I have to agree with some people. Girls are complicated. GIRLS ARE SO COMPLICATED. but sometimes, girls are simple. Most girls just want to feel loved. That includes a lot of different things, but still. Not a lot of girls are hard to figure out. Just love her and don't hang out with other girls. Be romantic and make her feel special. That's basically it all summed up. If the girl isn't happy, the guy isn't going to be very happy either (Ain't that right sista? <---- failed gangsta attempt). Personally, I'm a lot more complicated than regular girls. That's my personal opinion. I'm pretty sure that my mind is like messed up. I can be bipolar sometimes. I'm also very childish, but i guess that can be cute sometimes? Yeah, or really annoying.
Well, with my personality, when i find someone who wants to be with me despite everything that i am (Crazy, hyper, sad, very depressed, happy, emotional, screamy, bitchy sometimes, blahy, everything) then i guess it'll be good (thought i had that, but guess not...) Someday, I'll learn to love again. I'll find someone else who will love every single part of me. Every single detail of my existence. Maybe i'm just not ready to find him yet. I mean, i'm still an extremely shy person. I don't interact with guys very much. I guess i need to learn how to break out of my shell and experience life. I experienced life with someone. Someone i miss dearly. Someone i miss, but doesn't miss me. Now that's not fair is it? But life isn't fair. It's pretty darn hard ok? Nothing is going to come all wrapped up in pretty pink wrapping paper with a pretty purple bow on top. You have to survive through it all. Maybe i'm meant to survive through this.... or maybe i'm meant to go running back to him at the first sign of when he wants me. I don't know. I don't know what to do. That's why girls are complicated. It's because they think WAY too much. maybe i should just let my heart guide me.... But right now, my heart is guiding me to him. I guess i'll just hold back. Hold back until he's ready to be mine. If it really isn't meant to be, he won't come back. He won't come back ever and maybe then i'll be ready to move on.... This reminds me of something. Something i said to him a while ago. Something i repeated. Right now, this sounds so stupid. This statement that i said, it makes me pathetic. In my heart, it's perfectly reasonable. I'm sure some people will shout at me when i post this post. This post or a future post about him. About missing him so much it hurts. Man, this post was not supposed to be related to him. This post wasn't supposed to make me cry. This post was supposed to be girls being complicated and simple all in one. WHY CAN'T I STAY ON TOPIC? (i guess that's another part of who i am). Well, i'm leaving now. I might post two posts some days because i write way too much just for one day. Like yesterday, i wrote two. Oh well, maybe i'll keep them in case i can't write one of the days. *sigh* so much frustration.
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