September 23rd

and you know it. you know it damn well. why would you leave me? you know I didnt give a shit about them, you are my world and still are you fucking asshole. ARE YOU BLIND? why do you have to make me feel like shit and not look at me everytime I pass by you. why you gotta act like I dont even exist. did I mean that little to you? am I that easy to forget? …i love you. I cant fucking handle this.

(above) from a tumblr post that someone posted but expressed how i felt)

(and did you have to find another girl in a month. A FREAKING MONTH. Was i worth so little to you that you forgot me that quickly? You said you loved me. Obviously you lied. It only took you a month to meet another girl, talk to her, as her out. How is that even possible? Why did you freaking tell me the truth? Why didn't you freaking give me a better reason than "i'm tired of being in a relationship". Took you a month, probably less to get over that? And why did you get over it to be with another girl? You said you weren't tired of me, you were tired of the relationship. YOU LIED to me. How could you have loved me? How could this have happened when i saw you cry. You saw me cry. We shared everything. What is wrong with me that made you stop? Or did you even love me at all? Did you even care for me? Was it all a lie? Were you really cheating on me?? Why would you freaking leave me wondering? You aren't worth anything. You aren't worth anything and yet i still love you. My heart can't understand your lies. It just understands my feelings. My feelings for you were real. They were real and you threw them away. You threw them away to be with some other girl. Some other girl who is new and exciting. I hope you get tired of her too. Better yet, i hope that she gets freaking tired of you and hurts you like you hurt me so you would understand better. Understand what you made me feel. But i don't really wish that. Why would i wish my pain on someone that i love? Because i want you to feel what you are doing to me. Today would have been our 17th monthaversary. We lasted over 15 months. Over 15 months of me loving you and you blew it all away in a month. You freaking jerk. But i still love you....)