64 things you don't think about often

I'm going to answer some more tumblr questions because I need a distraction from my feelings of sadness.

1. Do you ever doubt the existence of others than you?
Do you mean aliens? I don't doubt the existence of life on planets other than earth. The universe is huge and anything is possible.

2. On a scale of 1-5, how afraid of the dark are you?
probably a 3.5. I freak myself out in the dark sometimes and think things are there when they aren't/

3. The person you would never want to meet?
A serial killer? I think they're geniuses but completely messed up...

4. What is your favorite word?
Dress. I LOVE dresses lol. I own over 50 dresses.

5. If you were a type of tree, what would you be?
I would be a weeping willow. Those trees are beautiful.

6. When you looked in the mirror this morning what was the first thing you thought?
What is my hair right now? I put my hair in a loose bun and it kind of came undone but not really so it looked really bad.

7. What shirt are you wearing?
I am actually wearing a dress right now lol

8. What do you label yourself as?
The quiet shy girl who sits in the back and doesn't like attention

9. Bright room or dark room?
I prefer a darker room (but not completely pitch black). My room in the mornings is my preferred lighting.

10. What were you doing at midnight last night?
Crying over a guy who probably doesn't care about me *sigh*

11. Favorite age you’ve been so far?
19. I don't really like 20 right now. 19 was when I gained more confidence.

12. Who told you they loved you last?
I think it was my best friend in February probably. I don't hear it often.

13. Your worst enemy?
Fuck boys. ugh.

14. What is your current desktop picture?
Inuyasha and Kagome on a bicycle lol it changes every 30 minutes.

15. Do you like someone?
Yes.

16. The last song you listened to?
Toes by Glassy Animals

17. You can press a button that will make any one person explode. Who would you blow up?
I don't know actually.... probably some serial killer or something

18. Who would you really like to just punch in the face?
Right now? The guy I like. He's an idiot and I am sad and kind of angry.

19. If anyone could be your slave for a day, who would it be and what would they have to do?
I don't like this question. I wouldn't want to force anyone to have to do something for me.

20. What is your best physical attribute? (showing said attribute is optional)
I have been told I Have a nice butt and also nice shoulder muscles... but I like my hair

21. If you were the opposite sex for one day, what would you look like and what would you do?
I would probably look like some tall nerdy asian lol and I'd probably do the helicopter dick thing haha

22. Do you have a secret talent? If yes, what is it?
I don't really know what is justified as a secret talent. I can write in cursive (sad that this is dying)

23. What is one unique thing you’re afraid of?
Loud dog barks?

24. You can only have one kind of sandwich. Every sandwich ingredient known to humankind is at your disposal.
White bread with lots of roast beef, lays original chips, mayo, mustard, lettuce.

25. You just found $100! How are you going to spend it?
on school. Broke college student life

26. You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere in the world, but you have to leave immediately. Where are you going to go? Hong Kong
27. An angel appears out of Heaven and offers you a lifetime supply of the alcoholic beverage of your choice. “Be brand-specific” it says. Man! What are you gonna say about that? Even if you don’t drink booze there’s something you can figure out… so what’s it gonna be?
Reid's apple ale or Verdi champagne

28. You discover a beautiful island upon which you may build your own society. You make the rules. What is the first rule you put into place?
No fuck boys

29. What is your favorite expletive?
fuck

30. Your house is on fire, holy shit! You have just enough time to run in there and grab ONE inanimate object. Don’t worry, your loved ones and pets have already made it out safely. So what’s the one thing you’re going to save from that blazing inferno?
My purse. All of my personal information is in it

31. You can erase any horrible experience from your past. What will it be?
ET ride at disneyland. It was more embarrassing than horrible lol

32. You got kicked out of the country for being a time-traveling heathen who sleeps with celebrities and has super-powers. But check out this cool shit… you can move to anywhere else in the world!
Soooo am i supposed to chose a place to live? London.

33. The Celestial Gates Of Beyond have opened, much to your surprise because you didn’t think such a thing existed. Death appears. As it turns out, Death is actually a pretty cool entity, and happens to be in a fantastic mood. Death offers to return the friend/family-member/person/etc. of your choice to the living world. Who will you bring back?
My grandpa on my dad's side. I would have loved to see what kind of person he would have been.

34. What was your last dream about?
The guy I like was scared to be with me but I told him I wanted to be with him because of his personality. Not because of anything else so he didn't have to change.

35. Are you a good….[insert anything you’d like here]?
I have been told I am a good kisser.

36. Have you ever been admitted to the hospital?
not on accident. I've had some sort of teeth surgery or something and had to go to the hospital for it.

37. Have you ever built a snowman?
yes

38. What is the color of your socks?
I wear black socks with color accents

39. What type of music do you like?
I like sad ballads with wonderful and whispy voices

40. Do you prefer sunrises or sunsets?
sunsets are beautiful

41. What is your favorite milkshake flavor?
Chocolate

42. What football team do you support? (I will answer in terms of American football as well as soccer)
Since I don't follow sports I will say Broncos and Rapids

43. Do you have any scars?
Yes. I have a scar on my wrist from when I broke my last jade bracelet. I now have a scar on my leg from overly scratching a thing I had on my thigh.

44. What do you want to be when you graduate?
I really want to synthesize and test medicine

45. If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?
My inability to be comfortable in a large group of people. It hold me back.

46. Are you reliable?
Yes. 100% yes.

47. If you could ask your future self one question, what would it be?
Was it worth it?

48. Do you hold grudges?
Yes I do.

49. If you could breed two animals together to defy the laws of nature, what new animal would you create?
I have no idea..... I would breed a horse and a narwal to create a unicorn!

50. What is the most unusual conversation you’ve ever had?
We had a conversation about porn once... it was weird.

51. Are you a good liar?
Not really

52. How long could you go without talking?
A week.... probably more if I am not seeing my best friend.

53. What has been you worst haircut/style?
7th grade. Bob.

54. Have you ever baked your own cake?
Not my own cake but I have baked cupcakes.

55. Can you do any accents other than your own?
not really

56. What do you like on your toast?
Jam and sometimes a little bit of butter

57. What is the last thing you drew a picture of?
an upside-down heart

58. What would be you dream car?
some sort of Mclaren

59. Do you sing in the shower? Or do anything unusual in the shower? Explain.
Sometimes I sing in the shower if I have my iPod in there with me. I have a weird routine when I shower.

60. Do you believe in aliens? It's possible.

61. Do you often read your horoscope? Yes.

62. What is your favorite letter of the alphabet? N

63. Which is cooler: dinosaurs or dragons? Dragons are WAY cooler.

64. What do you think about babies? They're cute but I am NOT ready for one yet.

Tumblr Thoughts

So I stumbled on this quote while I was on tumblr and thought I would discuss it on this wonderful and terribly inactive blog. College is hard. College is stressful. College makes me want to scream in frustration.

The quote is:
“I wonder who’s arms would I run and fall into if I were drunk in a room with everyone I have ever loved”


I am going to change that last word to liked because I haven't really loved many people. This got me thinking though. I was kind of put into that situation recently. Just kinda... ok, not really... Yeah, totally not really. Ok, scratch that.

Anyways. If I was drunk, I would probably go around and just fall into the arms of each and every single guy. I mean when I am a bit tipsy, apparently I LOVE to hug people. If you know me, that's like a complete 180. I do not enjoy touching strangers or hugging in general. It was really weird because at a party I was totally just asking every guy who walked through the door to just give me a hug.

But really. In reality, if I was drunk I would hug every guy there. As for who I would just like follow around, that would really depend. I mean there are guys that I liked for a really really really long time (like 5 years+ long) and there are some guys that I have thought were really really really attractive and I may have liked them for a little bit. When it comes down to it, I would probably just chose the guy that I came with... but I really wouldn't know. Could I really stop myself from going to the one person that made me feel for a little bit of my life or the guy that I liked for a really long time but has an awesome girlfriend right now? I don't know. I am kind of sensible when I am drunk so I would probably (and I say probably because I am really not that sure) NOT go back to the one guy that broke my heart because to be honest, he was a jerk and I kinda don't like him at like all right now. I probably wouldn't fall into the arms of the guy that I used to like for a really long time because I just want to be his friend now. I don't want anything to happen with him. I just want to finally become his friend again.

As for the guys that I may actually fall into. There is a guy. He's nice. I don't know if I like him. I don't know if things will happen, but I absolutely love his personality and I know he would take care of me if he wasn't wasted himself. He's awesome, but just a little too outgoing for me. He has a bunch of girls and to be honest we're friends. I could see things happening, but I don't really know if I want things to happen or not (probably not... but he's probably the most likely guy I would go to). Then there is another guy. The guy who rejected me when I tried to dance with him. SO embarrassing by the way and a total confidence killer. Haha, I took a chance and got shot down, not really something I want to try again... but I would love to get to know him more if I had the chance.

You know, looking back, I have really really changed as a person but I will leave that to another blog post.

Till next time fellow non-socialites.

Holla

Well, it's been a while but things just don't happen to me.

I guess I shall temporarily use this blog as a way to do answer things that I find on tumblr?

I guess since nothing has happened to me (besides maybe liking another person? Idk yet so....) I shall go ahead and do some random posts on things I find on tumblr. That's probably going to be a majority of my new posts until something actually happens? idk yet.

Man, I know nothing. My whole life is up in the air right now. Let's just do this. ABOUT ME

► Name ➔ Felicia
► Will you answer all questions truthfully ➔ Yes
► Are you single ➔ Yes
► Are you happy ➔ meh
► Are you bored ➔ yes
► Are you sad ➔ Meh?
► Are you Italian ➔ No
► Are you German ➔ No
► Are you Asian ➔ Yes and proud of it
► Are you angry ➔ noo? at least not right now?
► Are you Irish ➔ No
► Are your parents still married ➔ Yes


TEN FACTS
► Birth Place ➔ US of A. To be more specific, Colorado?
► Hair Color ➔ Black, straight up. Darkest hair out of most of my sisters
► Birthday ➔ June 27th
► Mood ➔ tired and excited :)
► Gender ➔ Female
► Lefty or Righty ➔ Righty
► Summer or winter ➔ mostly summer, but sometimes winter
► Morning or afternoon ➔ Afternoon I guess


TEN THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE
► Are you in love ➔ No
► Do you believe in love at first sight ➔ kinda
► Who ended your last relationship ➔ A jerk
► Have you ever been hurt ➔ Yes
► Have you ever broken someone’s heart ➔ maybe?? probably? I don't know?
► Are you friends with your ex ➔ *ahem* refer to the jerk (no)
► Are you afraid of commitment ➔ Absolutely not
► Have you hugged someone within the last week? ➔ Yes, tons of people (tons in my opinion, like 5 in others)
► Have you ever had a secret admirer ➔ Yes? If by secret you mean they never told me but I figured it out then yes
► Have you ever broken your own heart? ➔ how does that work?


TEN CHOICES
► Love or lust ➔ Love
► Lemonade or iced tea ➔ Iced tea
► Cats or Dogs ➔ Both..... but if it comes down to it, dogs
► A few best friends or many regular friends ➔ few best
► Television or internet ➔ Internet... duh
► Pepsi or Coke ➔ Coke
► Wild night out or romantic night in ➔ Romantic night in
► Day or night ➔ Night
► IM or Phone ➔ IM


TEN HAVE YOU EVER ► Been caught sneaking out ➔ No, not by my parents
► Fallen off the stairs ➔ yes
► White water rafted ➔ No
► Finished an entire jawbreaker ➔ yes, one of those smaller ones
► Wanted something/someone so badly it hurt? ➔ Yes
► Prank called a store ➔ No
► Skipped school ➔ I skipped a class once.... but not an entire day of school
► Wanted to disappear ➔ Yes


TEN PREFERENCES
► Smile or eyes ➔ smile
► Light or dark hair ➔ Dark hair
► Fat or skinny ➔ Skinny
► Shorter or Taller ➔ taller, way taller please?
► Intelligence or Attraction ➔ attraction?? i guess
►Jock or Nerd ➔ nerd
► Hook-up or Relationship ➔ Relationship
► Funny and poor OR rich and serious ➔ Funny and poor


LAST
► Last Phone Call ➔ umm, my sister
► Last phone call you received ➔ my cousin
► Last person you hung out with ➔ my friend
► Last thing you ate ➔ fries
► Last thing you drank ➔ coke
► Last site you went to ➔ tumblr
► Last place you were ➔ work


RELATIONSHIPS
► Are you in a committed relationship ➔ No
► When was your last relationship ➔ hmmm.... ended junior year... I am now almost a freshman in college... so almost 2 years?
► Have you ever loved a guy/girl more than anything else in the world? ➔ yes
► Do you still love them ➔ no, lol. That's funny.
► Do you like someone right now ➔ I don’t even know.... maybe? How can I tell if I like him because they're nice to me or if I really really do like him?
I just don't even know right now.


FAMILY
► Do you and your family get along ➔ haha. no.
► Would you say you have a “messed up life”➔ yup
► Have you ever run away from home ➔ No, but i've wanted to.... really really badly
► Have you ever gotten kicked out ➔ Yes, I was threatened with that.
► If so, how long ➔ Didn't happen
FRIENDS ► Do you secretly hate one of your friends ➔ Yes, like a bunch of them. Once I tire of you, I get super tired of you and hate you for a while.
► Do you consider all of your friends good friends ➔ No, absolutely not. I have like 2 best friends.
► Would you die for them ➔ For my friends? no. For my BEST friends? Absolutely.
► Who knows everything about you ➔ No one


Yup, that's it. Some facts about a stranger.

Answers to Questions part 2

Here is part two.

52. Are you nice to everyone?
Depends on the person you ask. To some people, I am too nice. To others, I am mean. To myself? I don't really know.

53. Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to?
Yes, yes, yes, yes, yes, yes. Totally did not expect to like a lot of people that I did like but whatever.

54. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat?
Ummm.... considering I was in a relationship with a guy for 15 months without cheating..... yeah.

55. Are you good at hiding your feelings?
Yes, yes I am. I am very good at this.

56. Do you think you like someone?
Honestly? I don't really know anymore.

57. Have you kissed someone whose name starts with a ‘J’?
My baby cousin's name is Jenna but that probably doesn't count.... so no

58. Do you prefer to be friends with girls or boys?
Neither. I don't really like people in general.

59. Has anyone of your friends ever seen you cry?
Yeah, I think in 7th grade and then last year around april.

60. Do you hate anyone?
I hate everyone.

61. How’s your heart?
Broken.

62. Is there something that happened in your past that you hate talking about?
Yeah, a lot of things actually.

63. Have you ever cried over a guy?
Duh. I'm a girl.

64. Who is probably talking a load of crap about you right now?
I don't know.... everybody? to be realistic, probably nobody because very few people notice me.

65. Are your toenails painted pink?
No. They used to be painted red but now they're super chipped.

66. Will your next kiss be a mistake?
I hope not.

67. Girls love it when boyfriends cry; correct?
I guess. I don't know. depends on why they're crying.

68. Have your pants ever fallen down in public?
no.

69. Who was the last person you were on the phone with?
My mom.

70. How do you look right now?
like a freaking slob.

71. Do you have someone you can be your complete self around?
Honestly? No.

72. Can you commit to one person?
Yes, yes I can.

73. Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to?
No, not anymore.

74. Have you ever felt replaced?
Yes, a lot actually. It's really easy to replace me.

75. Did you wake up cranky?
Today? No.

76. Are you a jealous person?
Yes, yes i am.

77. Are relationships ever worth it?
I don't know anymore.

78. Anyone you’re giving up on?
Yeah, kind of sad actually but yes.

79. Currently wanting to see anyone?
No, I kind of hate the world at this moment.

80. Name something you have to do tomorrow?
Work.

81. Last person you cried in front of?
does myself count? If not.... probably one of my best friends.

82. Is there someone you will never forget?
Yeah, I probably won't forget him. You know how it is with first love.

83. Do you think the person you have feelings for is protective of you?
No, not at all.

84. If the person you wish to be with were with you, what would you be doing right now?
Freaking out because it probably won't ever happen.

85. Are you over your past?
Honestly, no I am not.

86. Have you ever liked one of your best friends of the opposite sex?
I don't have best friends of the opposite sex.

87. Is there anyone you can tell EVERYTHING to?
Yes, one person.

88. If your first true love knocked on your door with apology and presents, would you accept?
I don't know. I honestly don't know. He hurt me a lot and I don't know if I can ever trust him again. What is a relationship without trust?

89. So, the last person you kissed just happens to arrive at your door at 3AM; do you let them in?
No, hell no. My parents would kill me if he ever knocked on my door at 3am. Heck, I would kill him if he did that.

90. Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated?
Yeah. They didn't hate him at first though.

91. Will you be in a relationship in 2 months?
Probably not. I'm a loner.

92. Is there anyone you know with the name Michael?
Yes, my boss's son's name is Michael.

93. Have you ever kissed a Matthew?
Nope. I've only ever kissed one guy.

94. Were you in a relationship in January? How was it going?
This january? Nope, wasn't in a relationship.

95. Were you happy with the person you liked in March?
Nope. When am I ever happy with the person I like? Do I even like anyone anymore?

96. Don’t tell me lies, is the last person you texted attractive?
YES, absolutely gorgeous. She's my best friend and she's awesome.

97. Who do you have texts from?
Friends

98. If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say?
I would be heart broken. One the outside I would be like "fuck you, I don't need you" but on the inside I am really like "what's wrong with me?"

99. Have you ever kissed someone older than you?
Yup.

100. Who’s in your profile picture with you?
My bestest buddy.

101. Ever kissed under fireworks?
hmmm...... I don't think so.

102. Has anybody ever given you butterflies?
Yes.

So many questions.

Answers to questions Part 1

Hey y'all. I found all these questions in a tumblr post and thought I would answer them. I should really be studying for my AP Chemistry exam tomorrow, but who wants to do that? Not me, so I will procrastinate with doing this. There are 102 questions so I will just answer 52 of them now :)


1. Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they meant it?
The last person to say I love you to me was my ex. Did I think he meant it? I thought he did, but maybe he didn't

2. Would you date an 18-year-old at the age you are now?
I happen to be 17, so yes.

3. When’s the last time you were aggravated and happy at the same time?
Prom.

4. Would you ever smile at a stranger?
I do all the time at work. I'm forced to.

5. Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are?
I hope not... I don't talk to lots of people so I don't know.

6. Have you heard a song that reminds you of someone today?
nope, not yet.

7. What exactly are you wearing right now?
Pajamas. My race4kids health volunteer shirt, purple tank top, pink bra, white underpants, black leggings, neon green shorts

8. How often do you listen to music?
Everyday. Music is my savior

9. Do you wear jeans or sweats more?
Used to be sweats but now I wear jeans more (even though I prefer skirts)

10. Do you think your life will change dramatically before 2013?
It is 2013.....

11. Are you a social or an antisocial person?
antisocial

12. Have you ever kissed someone whose name begins with the letter ‘A’?
Yes.... and I hope to kiss another person whose name begins with the same letter

13. What about ‘R’?
Nope. I've only had 1 kiss

14. Can you drive a stick shift?
hell no

15. Do you care if people talk badly about you?
yeah, even though I think I don't, I really do care.

16. Are you going out of town soon?
yeah, when I go to college

17. When was the last time you cried?
four days ago?

18. Have you ever told someone you loved them?
yes

19. If you could change your eye color, would you?
Yes, my eyes are super dark brown.... i just thought they were black. I want them to be lighter

20. Is there a boy who you would do absolutely everything for?
Yes, yes there is but he doesn't really know I exist.

21. Name something you dislike about the day you’re having.
The fact that tomorrow I have an AP Chemistry test to take.

22. Is it cute when guys kiss you on your forehead?
YES

23. Are you dating the last person you talked to?
ummm.... no, considering I am not a lesbian

24. What are you sitting on right now?
bed

25. Does anyone regularly (other than family) tell you they love you?
No.....

26. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have?
Yes, that happens a lot.

27. Who was the last person you talked to before you went to bed last night?
My sister

28. Do you get a lot of colds?
I guess. Define a lot?

29. Where is the shirt you are wearing from?
Race4Kids Health

30. Does anyone hate you?
Probably

31. Do you have any empty alcohol bottles hidden somewhere in your room?
Nope, I don't drink

32. Do you like watching scary movies?
Nope, unless I get to stare at the guy I like. Then I am semi okay with it.

33. Do you want your tongue pierced?
no

34. If you had to delete one year of your life completely, which would it be?
ummm..... The year my relationship ended. I was hurt, very very hurt and now I am broken.

35. Did you have a dream last night?
no

36. When was the last time you told someone you loved them?
umm.... a long time ago

37. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years?
No.

38. Do you think someone has feelings for you?
Honestly? No.

39. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
Honestly? Nope.

40. Did you have a good day yesterday?
Yes and no for various reasons.

41. Think back 2 months ago; were you in a relationship?
Nope. stop reminding me.

42. In the next 48 hours, will you hang out with a girl?
Yup

43. Has anyone told you they don’t want to ever lose you?
Yes, but he lied.

44. What’s the best part about school?
Off periods

45. Do you have any pictures on your Facebook?
Duh, I am a girl and a girly girl at that.

46. Do you ever pass notes to your friends in school?
I used to.

47. Do you replay things that have happened in your head?
Yes, yes I do. The good and the bad.

48. Were you single over the last summer?
Yup. Stop it.

49. Is your life anything like it was two years ago?
Nope, it completely changed.

50. What are you supposed to be doing right now?
Studying, sleeping, anything but doing this.

51. Do you hate the last guy you had a conversation with?
No. Last phone conversation was with my manager. Last in person conversations were my friend's boyfriend, my crush, and his friends. last facebook conversation was my cousin, so no. I don't hate any of them.