8. Your best friend confesses that he/she has feelings for you more than just friendship. He/she is falling in love with you. What do you (or did you) do/say?
I am going to change this to friend because my best friend is in a committed relationship and that would just be weird.
Well if my friend confessed that he had feelings for me, I would friend zone him. If he's my friend, then I am probably comfortable around him. I would only see him as a friend and not someone I would date. There are people that I am friends with that I would NEVER date. If I am friends with a guy and I actually call him my friend and hang out with him a lot and tell him things, then in my mind he really isn't a guy. He becomes a girl in my mind. I know I am not wording this right because a lot of guys would be offended if I told them I don't see them as a guy (which I have done before and the guy is super nice and understanding so he wasn't offended, at least I don't think he was).
Okay, I have a very hard time talking to guys I find attractive. If I find a guy attractive and want to date him, I would probably not talk to him on my own. I mean I did have a crush on a guy for like five years and never once had a full on conversation with him because I am really that painfully shy. So, with that in mind if I am friends with a guy then he really isn't someone that I could see myself dating.
If I am overly chatty with a guy or I tell him things that I really should be only telling my girlfriends, he is not someone I would date. If he wanted to date me, I would shoot him down because I really would not be having any romantic thoughts about him. It's just how my mind works.
I know I am not explaining this well but I can't really explain my brain... I can't really pull up the right words.
Oh well.
Monday, July 28, 2014
Time Boils the Rain
Oh my goodness, I am absolutely obsessed with Wu YiFan dinging Time Boils the Rain for Tiny Times 3 OST. His voice is awesome.
Anyway, I thought I would write this blog post on my feelings about Kris leaving EXO and my thoughts on SM Entertainment.
First off, I LOVE Kris. He is near the top of my bias list for EXO members (a lot of the times he is at the top) but in no way did I not do I now condone the timing of him suing SM and leaving EXO. I mean come on, he could have at least waited until after promotions instead of causing the whole group to rearrange themselves for performances and what not.
I don't like how he left SM but I am happy that he's happy now. I am not a delusional fan girl who will hate Kris for what he did to the rest of the EXO members because honestly, I don't think I can really hate Kris unless he did something illegal and like really bad (like sexual assault or really dating his married direct, which I will also talk about later). I am also not the delusional fan girl who still has hope that Kris will go back to being EXO-M's leader because it's clear that he's happy without being in SM.
I really hope that Wu YiFan will be able to stay friends with some of the members. I know they feel betrayed but they did train together and debut together. I wonder how they feel when they hear about Kris being in these movies and singing songs. Do they still feel betrayed or are they happy that their friend is happy? I am hoping it's the latter although I know it can take time to get over a betrayal.
Sometimes, I can't help but think that Kris leaving helped open up new doors for EXO. I have no idea if DO participating in It's Okay, That's Love and Chen participating in singing an OST song was because SM wanted to show Kris that he could have been in things if he stayed. Sometimes it feels like spite from SM (kind of like hey, you left and now we're letting your members participate in things they want to do or something like that). I know I am making my own assumptions but who really knows?
That's the real problem. We don't know the whole story so it's really hard to actually have like real opinions on solid facts. SM could have been controlling the member's instagrams (I was SO SAD when I saw that the members unfollower Kris but Kris was still following the members) or if everything went down the way that some people know. We just don't have all the facts.
Ugh, I am not butt hurt about this but I do have my own opinions on what happened. Again, I do not like the fact that Kris left. I do not like the time that he chose to leave. I just think that this is good for him. If he's not happy being in EXO then it would just make it harder on everyone if he did just stay for the benefit of the fans. I would rather Kris be happy than just putting on a facade in front of all his fans just to keep them happy.
Also, about the stupid thing that Kris is dating his director. I call bullshit. Like seriously? Unless he's trying to pull some kind of Kristen Stewart, I highly doubt he would date a woman who is in her forties and is married. like WTF are people trying to start? Unless there are some pictures or something as proof, I highly doubt that YiFan would do something like that. Any fan that actually believes that is stupid in my opinion because it isn't something that should even sound remotely like the truth unless there is hard evidence (like with Kristen Stewart).
I am just happy that Kris is happy. I really love his voice. I thought maybe he was another one of those people that SM recruited just for their looks and couldn't really sing so instead they had him rap but OMG KRIS'S VOICE IS LIKE SEX. I love deep voices, which is what attracted me to Kris in the first place but I thought he was just another rapper. I had NO idea that he could sing so nicely. SM, you did wrong by hiding such talent from us fans. I know with 12 members, there are many that get overshadowed. Lay is an awesome singer and composer and he really should be recognized for that. I mean Baekhyun's DO's and Chen's voices are like sex too but there are plenty of talented members in EXO that should get some spotlight time themselves sometimes. SM needs to stop playing favorites (and it is SO obvious that they do) and just have their idol's happiness in mind (because when the idols are happy we fans are happy).
This is like the end of my Kris/ Wu Yifan rant (I may or may not post my feelings on the Baekhyun dating Taeyeon if I feel like it later). My rant wasn't really organized but I support Kris when he was in EXO and I support Wu YiFan now that he's out of EXO. That doesn't mean I don't still support EXO because I do.
If EXO ends up slowly breaking down and the members go their separate ways, I will support each and every one of them in what they do because I feel like as an EXOtic and a fan of their music and voices it is something I must do.
I love OT12 but I also love OT11 and Wu YiFan.
Anyway, I thought I would write this blog post on my feelings about Kris leaving EXO and my thoughts on SM Entertainment.
First off, I LOVE Kris. He is near the top of my bias list for EXO members (a lot of the times he is at the top) but in no way did I not do I now condone the timing of him suing SM and leaving EXO. I mean come on, he could have at least waited until after promotions instead of causing the whole group to rearrange themselves for performances and what not.
I don't like how he left SM but I am happy that he's happy now. I am not a delusional fan girl who will hate Kris for what he did to the rest of the EXO members because honestly, I don't think I can really hate Kris unless he did something illegal and like really bad (like sexual assault or really dating his married direct, which I will also talk about later). I am also not the delusional fan girl who still has hope that Kris will go back to being EXO-M's leader because it's clear that he's happy without being in SM.
I really hope that Wu YiFan will be able to stay friends with some of the members. I know they feel betrayed but they did train together and debut together. I wonder how they feel when they hear about Kris being in these movies and singing songs. Do they still feel betrayed or are they happy that their friend is happy? I am hoping it's the latter although I know it can take time to get over a betrayal.
Sometimes, I can't help but think that Kris leaving helped open up new doors for EXO. I have no idea if DO participating in It's Okay, That's Love and Chen participating in singing an OST song was because SM wanted to show Kris that he could have been in things if he stayed. Sometimes it feels like spite from SM (kind of like hey, you left and now we're letting your members participate in things they want to do or something like that). I know I am making my own assumptions but who really knows?
That's the real problem. We don't know the whole story so it's really hard to actually have like real opinions on solid facts. SM could have been controlling the member's instagrams (I was SO SAD when I saw that the members unfollower Kris but Kris was still following the members) or if everything went down the way that some people know. We just don't have all the facts.
Ugh, I am not butt hurt about this but I do have my own opinions on what happened. Again, I do not like the fact that Kris left. I do not like the time that he chose to leave. I just think that this is good for him. If he's not happy being in EXO then it would just make it harder on everyone if he did just stay for the benefit of the fans. I would rather Kris be happy than just putting on a facade in front of all his fans just to keep them happy.
Also, about the stupid thing that Kris is dating his director. I call bullshit. Like seriously? Unless he's trying to pull some kind of Kristen Stewart, I highly doubt he would date a woman who is in her forties and is married. like WTF are people trying to start? Unless there are some pictures or something as proof, I highly doubt that YiFan would do something like that. Any fan that actually believes that is stupid in my opinion because it isn't something that should even sound remotely like the truth unless there is hard evidence (like with Kristen Stewart).
I am just happy that Kris is happy. I really love his voice. I thought maybe he was another one of those people that SM recruited just for their looks and couldn't really sing so instead they had him rap but OMG KRIS'S VOICE IS LIKE SEX. I love deep voices, which is what attracted me to Kris in the first place but I thought he was just another rapper. I had NO idea that he could sing so nicely. SM, you did wrong by hiding such talent from us fans. I know with 12 members, there are many that get overshadowed. Lay is an awesome singer and composer and he really should be recognized for that. I mean Baekhyun's DO's and Chen's voices are like sex too but there are plenty of talented members in EXO that should get some spotlight time themselves sometimes. SM needs to stop playing favorites (and it is SO obvious that they do) and just have their idol's happiness in mind (because when the idols are happy we fans are happy).
This is like the end of my Kris/ Wu Yifan rant (I may or may not post my feelings on the Baekhyun dating Taeyeon if I feel like it later). My rant wasn't really organized but I support Kris when he was in EXO and I support Wu YiFan now that he's out of EXO. That doesn't mean I don't still support EXO because I do.
If EXO ends up slowly breaking down and the members go their separate ways, I will support each and every one of them in what they do because I feel like as an EXOtic and a fan of their music and voices it is something I must do.
I love OT12 but I also love OT11 and Wu YiFan.
Thursday, July 17, 2014
Deep Ass Questions #7
The question is 7. Would you rather be hurt by the one you trust the most or the one you love the most?
Hmmmmm.... let me think about this.... would I want to be hurt by the one I trust the most.... or the one I love the most......
Well, I would like to think that the one I love the most (probs my significant other) would be the person I trust the most... but if that was not the case, I would rather be hurt by the one that I.... trust most. I don't trust easy so even if someone who I trusted hurt me, all that would do would betray my trust and then I will probably never speak to them again (kind of like what's going on in my life right now I guess) but I love way too easy. If someone I loved hurt me, I would be heartbroken for a REALLY long time. It'll take me a long time to be able to feel okay again.
Being hurt by people that I trust is a lot easier to deal with than if I was hurt by someone that I love (at least in my mind).
Hmmmmm.... let me think about this.... would I want to be hurt by the one I trust the most.... or the one I love the most......
Well, I would like to think that the one I love the most (probs my significant other) would be the person I trust the most... but if that was not the case, I would rather be hurt by the one that I.... trust most. I don't trust easy so even if someone who I trusted hurt me, all that would do would betray my trust and then I will probably never speak to them again (kind of like what's going on in my life right now I guess) but I love way too easy. If someone I loved hurt me, I would be heartbroken for a REALLY long time. It'll take me a long time to be able to feel okay again.
Being hurt by people that I trust is a lot easier to deal with than if I was hurt by someone that I love (at least in my mind).
Saturday, May 10, 2014
Deep Ass Question #6
6. You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late even once more, you are fired. Do you take the time to save the dogs life? Why or Why not?
This would really depend on a number of factors. I would love to try and save a dog that was drowning, but I can't really swim that well.... sooooo..... I would probably drown as well..... I am not really sure what I would do. I could always attempt to, but I would be terrified of drowning myself. It isn't really helpful if I drown with the dog. I don't know. I would probably try and help with a flotation device or tell someone else next to me or call the police or something. I am not sure. I could always try and explain to my boss but it isn't always guaranteed that they will even understand.
This question calls into whether I care about myself more or the welfare of an animal. I am not cruel, but I am not kind either. I would really have to be put in that situation in order to truly know what I would do.
This would really depend on a number of factors. I would love to try and save a dog that was drowning, but I can't really swim that well.... sooooo..... I would probably drown as well..... I am not really sure what I would do. I could always attempt to, but I would be terrified of drowning myself. It isn't really helpful if I drown with the dog. I don't know. I would probably try and help with a flotation device or tell someone else next to me or call the police or something. I am not sure. I could always try and explain to my boss but it isn't always guaranteed that they will even understand.
This question calls into whether I care about myself more or the welfare of an animal. I am not cruel, but I am not kind either. I would really have to be put in that situation in order to truly know what I would do.
Annoyed.
Well, here I am again letting out all my annoyance and feelings onto a blog post because I have absolutely NO one else to talk to. One of my so called best friends turned out to not be as good of a friend as I thought. My other one, I don't really share things with even though she is one of the best people in my life. I am just angry. I am not happy, and it is just not good to keep everything in.
I just don't understand. I don't understand how some people could do the most idiotic acts ever. I don't understand why some things make people change for the worst, sometimes for the better, but I am not sure at the moment. I am just extremely frustrated with everything and everyone and ugh. Everything is just terrible.
Let's start off with the straw that broke the camel's back. Stupid stupid stupid. I can't even describe the rage that I have. Sisters should not hate each other, but there is no doubt that I absolutely despise my two sisters with a burning passion. We aren't even going to talk about the evil one because that would make me too angry to even type everything else.
Let us talk about the slutty one. Apparently my mother came home today to discover that she had "stolen" (according to the evil one, she was asleep while this happened but I call bullshit on her stupid lies) my sister's car keys and have driven somewhere and refuses to come home. Part of this frustration is because I can't really think that a girl who doesn't even have her license could do such a thing (but no, she's done it on numerous occasions and has even broken the side view mirror off of my mom's car. She said my dad planned it that way because she always parks it 'perfectly' back into place. That idiot.) but a major part of my frustration is at my parents for not really doing anything about it besides just yelling at her. I am not saying that I am condoning my parents beating the crap out of her, but I sort of am because there is really no other way I can possibly see them getting through to her thick fucking skull (please excuse my language but I am so full of frustration and rage. I can't even comprehend this idiot.).
To be honest, my parents are afraid of their children. They kind of deserve it too. I suppose I was raised in a culture (don't quote me on this but my mother tells me this all the time) that when we have children, they will be demon children because of the way we treat my parents. Sometimes I think that's true. My mother doesn't treat my grandmother very kindly (and I hate her for it). Looking at how she backtalks to my grandmother, there is no surprise where my sisters learned such disrespect for my mom. My mom has actually admitted that she was scared of my sister (to quote her, not directly of course because she said it in cantonese, I better go get your sister her doughnuts [my sister demanded my mom buy her krispy kreme doughnuts] or she'll yell at me and I am scared of her). You know, I don't really understand why she, the slutty one, has all the power. She's my dad's favorite despite all of this stupid crap she tries to pull (I know for a fact she drinks alcohol and smokes weed even though she is only a sophomore in high school). Even the evil one bows down to her wishes. I am the ONLY one who is not afraid of her and yet I don't care enough for her wellbeing to tell her. I haven't spoken to her for over a year and I don't plan to because she's a bitch to be honest.
Actually, I could give her a lecture but I know for a fact that I will end up exploding with anger and beating her myself. I don't want to resort to that because I know I will feel bad about myself, not necessarily guilty (because I will NEVER feel guilty for giving her what she deserves) but I will be disappointed in myself for letting her get to me in such a way that I would be too angry to even think. I have a lot of pent up anger inside of me but I don't always feel it. Sometimes it bursts out in random blog posts and other times I just have to cry it out by myself because no one is really 100% there for me.
I don't know. I just hope the slutty one gets retribution in one form or another. Either she gets pregnant, drops out of high school, doesn't go to college, gets arrested, gets pulled over, i don't care what as long as it makes her take a good look at her life and where she's heading. You know what, I hope that she actually ruins her life because that teaches more lessons than thinking she will get away with whatever she wants.
You know I once told my other sister a difference between expecting to get whatever you want and being a good person, gaining good karma points, and having good things happen to them. Maybe I will rant about that in another blog post but anyway...
What this blog post made me realize (and it's a really sad realization) is that I really have no one to go to. Sure I could start telling my cousin things, but will she really understand? No. I know that for a fact she won't. I will just get angry with her because she's friends with the slutty one and sometimes says things that also make me extremely angry because she doesn't think like me. I can't tell one of my oldest friends because we just don't discuss these types of things. Sure I will tell her about my idiotic sister but I won't tell her about how I feel about it or how it makes me so incredibly angry.As I mentioned in the first paragraph, I can't really tell my so called best friend because once she went to another state, she basically left our friendship in the dust. I have realized she is not the best of friends and people (specifically my college roommate) has told me that I should be glad to be rid of such a terrible person but why do I feel so sad? There really isn't anyone I can talk to besides you, my blog. I have realized so many times that the people I thought cared about me really didn't and I am kind of tired of not having any real friends who I can share everything with.
Everything sucks and I am crying but what can I really do about it? Nothing but keep it all bottled up until the next time I deserve a good cry. I am so fed up with my life, with annoying people, with fake people, with people who don't really care. It is not 1:38 in the morning. My eyes are wet and my throat is killing me but I have to wake up at 9 in the morning, put a smile on my face, and pretend to be okay for a while until the next time I write a blog post.
It's times like this where I wish I had someone who actually cared and knew enough about me to make me feel better. I had that but turns out that he was an absolute jerk but I will not discuss that now, especially while I am in such an emotional state because I will just end up saying things that aren't true ( or maybe they are. I may be emotional, but I am more honest when I am in this state. or so I would like to believe).
I am just not a happy person and right now I don't really feel like I could ever truly say that I am 100% happy with where I am in life. I am just going to attempt to surround myself with comfortable pillows and just listen to lovely instrumental music and just cry and try to sleep. I am just so emotionally spent.
I just don't understand. I don't understand how some people could do the most idiotic acts ever. I don't understand why some things make people change for the worst, sometimes for the better, but I am not sure at the moment. I am just extremely frustrated with everything and everyone and ugh. Everything is just terrible.
Let's start off with the straw that broke the camel's back. Stupid stupid stupid. I can't even describe the rage that I have. Sisters should not hate each other, but there is no doubt that I absolutely despise my two sisters with a burning passion. We aren't even going to talk about the evil one because that would make me too angry to even type everything else.
Let us talk about the slutty one. Apparently my mother came home today to discover that she had "stolen" (according to the evil one, she was asleep while this happened but I call bullshit on her stupid lies) my sister's car keys and have driven somewhere and refuses to come home. Part of this frustration is because I can't really think that a girl who doesn't even have her license could do such a thing (but no, she's done it on numerous occasions and has even broken the side view mirror off of my mom's car. She said my dad planned it that way because she always parks it 'perfectly' back into place. That idiot.) but a major part of my frustration is at my parents for not really doing anything about it besides just yelling at her. I am not saying that I am condoning my parents beating the crap out of her, but I sort of am because there is really no other way I can possibly see them getting through to her thick fucking skull (please excuse my language but I am so full of frustration and rage. I can't even comprehend this idiot.).
To be honest, my parents are afraid of their children. They kind of deserve it too. I suppose I was raised in a culture (don't quote me on this but my mother tells me this all the time) that when we have children, they will be demon children because of the way we treat my parents. Sometimes I think that's true. My mother doesn't treat my grandmother very kindly (and I hate her for it). Looking at how she backtalks to my grandmother, there is no surprise where my sisters learned such disrespect for my mom. My mom has actually admitted that she was scared of my sister (to quote her, not directly of course because she said it in cantonese, I better go get your sister her doughnuts [my sister demanded my mom buy her krispy kreme doughnuts] or she'll yell at me and I am scared of her). You know, I don't really understand why she, the slutty one, has all the power. She's my dad's favorite despite all of this stupid crap she tries to pull (I know for a fact she drinks alcohol and smokes weed even though she is only a sophomore in high school). Even the evil one bows down to her wishes. I am the ONLY one who is not afraid of her and yet I don't care enough for her wellbeing to tell her. I haven't spoken to her for over a year and I don't plan to because she's a bitch to be honest.
Actually, I could give her a lecture but I know for a fact that I will end up exploding with anger and beating her myself. I don't want to resort to that because I know I will feel bad about myself, not necessarily guilty (because I will NEVER feel guilty for giving her what she deserves) but I will be disappointed in myself for letting her get to me in such a way that I would be too angry to even think. I have a lot of pent up anger inside of me but I don't always feel it. Sometimes it bursts out in random blog posts and other times I just have to cry it out by myself because no one is really 100% there for me.
I don't know. I just hope the slutty one gets retribution in one form or another. Either she gets pregnant, drops out of high school, doesn't go to college, gets arrested, gets pulled over, i don't care what as long as it makes her take a good look at her life and where she's heading. You know what, I hope that she actually ruins her life because that teaches more lessons than thinking she will get away with whatever she wants.
You know I once told my other sister a difference between expecting to get whatever you want and being a good person, gaining good karma points, and having good things happen to them. Maybe I will rant about that in another blog post but anyway...
What this blog post made me realize (and it's a really sad realization) is that I really have no one to go to. Sure I could start telling my cousin things, but will she really understand? No. I know that for a fact she won't. I will just get angry with her because she's friends with the slutty one and sometimes says things that also make me extremely angry because she doesn't think like me. I can't tell one of my oldest friends because we just don't discuss these types of things. Sure I will tell her about my idiotic sister but I won't tell her about how I feel about it or how it makes me so incredibly angry.As I mentioned in the first paragraph, I can't really tell my so called best friend because once she went to another state, she basically left our friendship in the dust. I have realized she is not the best of friends and people (specifically my college roommate) has told me that I should be glad to be rid of such a terrible person but why do I feel so sad? There really isn't anyone I can talk to besides you, my blog. I have realized so many times that the people I thought cared about me really didn't and I am kind of tired of not having any real friends who I can share everything with.
Everything sucks and I am crying but what can I really do about it? Nothing but keep it all bottled up until the next time I deserve a good cry. I am so fed up with my life, with annoying people, with fake people, with people who don't really care. It is not 1:38 in the morning. My eyes are wet and my throat is killing me but I have to wake up at 9 in the morning, put a smile on my face, and pretend to be okay for a while until the next time I write a blog post.
It's times like this where I wish I had someone who actually cared and knew enough about me to make me feel better. I had that but turns out that he was an absolute jerk but I will not discuss that now, especially while I am in such an emotional state because I will just end up saying things that aren't true ( or maybe they are. I may be emotional, but I am more honest when I am in this state. or so I would like to believe).
I am just not a happy person and right now I don't really feel like I could ever truly say that I am 100% happy with where I am in life. I am just going to attempt to surround myself with comfortable pillows and just listen to lovely instrumental music and just cry and try to sleep. I am just so emotionally spent.
Sunday, February 23, 2014
Deep Ass Question #5
Well, would you look at that. Two posts in one day?? Oh em gee, what a miracle? haha. I crack myself up sometimes.
Here's the 5th installment of Deep Ass Questions brought to you buy a post on tumblr.
5. You can have one of the following two things. Which do you choose? Why? Love and Trust.
This is a really hard question to answer because I am a true romantic. I am in love with the idea of being in love. I want one of those deep, burning, and passionate loves that simmer down with age and just develops into a nice and awesome love.
*sigh* When it comes down to it, I would chose trust over love. What is love really without trust? Sure, you could love a person and it would be pretty good but if you don't trust a person, how could you really stop yourself from being paranoid and doubting everything. If there is no trust, it's not going to last. Love is really based on trust. You will eventually stop loving a person if you really don't trust them, am I right? The trust issues are just going to tear a relationship apart.
I would hate a relationship without trust. I am a girl and an insecure girl at that. If there is no trust then there is doubt, paranoia, sadness, pain, ect. and I would NOT be able to deal with that. If I think I love a guy but really all it's causing is pain like 24/7, I wouldn't be able to deal with that for the rest of my life.
There is no love without trust.
Here's the 5th installment of Deep Ass Questions brought to you buy a post on tumblr.
5. You can have one of the following two things. Which do you choose? Why? Love and Trust.
This is a really hard question to answer because I am a true romantic. I am in love with the idea of being in love. I want one of those deep, burning, and passionate loves that simmer down with age and just develops into a nice and awesome love.
*sigh* When it comes down to it, I would chose trust over love. What is love really without trust? Sure, you could love a person and it would be pretty good but if you don't trust a person, how could you really stop yourself from being paranoid and doubting everything. If there is no trust, it's not going to last. Love is really based on trust. You will eventually stop loving a person if you really don't trust them, am I right? The trust issues are just going to tear a relationship apart.
I would hate a relationship without trust. I am a girl and an insecure girl at that. If there is no trust then there is doubt, paranoia, sadness, pain, ect. and I would NOT be able to deal with that. If I think I love a guy but really all it's causing is pain like 24/7, I wouldn't be able to deal with that for the rest of my life.
There is no love without trust.
Tumblr Thoughts
So I stumbled on this quote while I was on tumblr and thought I would discuss it on this wonderful and terribly inactive blog. College is hard. College is stressful. College makes me want to scream in frustration.
The quote is:
“I wonder who’s arms would I run and fall into if I were drunk in a room with everyone I have ever loved”
I am going to change that last word to liked because I haven't really loved many people. This got me thinking though. I was kind of put into that situation recently. Just kinda... ok, not really... Yeah, totally not really. Ok, scratch that.
Anyways. If I was drunk, I would probably go around and just fall into the arms of each and every single guy. I mean when I am a bit tipsy, apparently I LOVE to hug people. If you know me, that's like a complete 180. I do not enjoy touching strangers or hugging in general. It was really weird because at a party I was totally just asking every guy who walked through the door to just give me a hug.
But really. In reality, if I was drunk I would hug every guy there. As for who I would just like follow around, that would really depend. I mean there are guys that I liked for a really really really long time (like 5 years+ long) and there are some guys that I have thought were really really really attractive and I may have liked them for a little bit. When it comes down to it, I would probably just chose the guy that I came with... but I really wouldn't know. Could I really stop myself from going to the one person that made me feel for a little bit of my life or the guy that I liked for a really long time but has an awesome girlfriend right now? I don't know. I am kind of sensible when I am drunk so I would probably (and I say probably because I am really not that sure) NOT go back to the one guy that broke my heart because to be honest, he was a jerk and I kinda don't like him at like all right now. I probably wouldn't fall into the arms of the guy that I used to like for a really long time because I just want to be his friend now. I don't want anything to happen with him. I just want to finally become his friend again.
As for the guys that I may actually fall into. There is a guy. He's nice. I don't know if I like him. I don't know if things will happen, but I absolutely love his personality and I know he would take care of me if he wasn't wasted himself. He's awesome, but just a little too outgoing for me. He has a bunch of girls and to be honest we're friends. I could see things happening, but I don't really know if I want things to happen or not (probably not... but he's probably the most likely guy I would go to). Then there is another guy. The guy who rejected me when I tried to dance with him. SO embarrassing by the way and a total confidence killer. Haha, I took a chance and got shot down, not really something I want to try again... but I would love to get to know him more if I had the chance.
You know, looking back, I have really really changed as a person but I will leave that to another blog post.
Till next time fellow non-socialites.
The quote is:
“I wonder who’s arms would I run and fall into if I were drunk in a room with everyone I have ever loved”
I am going to change that last word to liked because I haven't really loved many people. This got me thinking though. I was kind of put into that situation recently. Just kinda... ok, not really... Yeah, totally not really. Ok, scratch that.
Anyways. If I was drunk, I would probably go around and just fall into the arms of each and every single guy. I mean when I am a bit tipsy, apparently I LOVE to hug people. If you know me, that's like a complete 180. I do not enjoy touching strangers or hugging in general. It was really weird because at a party I was totally just asking every guy who walked through the door to just give me a hug.
But really. In reality, if I was drunk I would hug every guy there. As for who I would just like follow around, that would really depend. I mean there are guys that I liked for a really really really long time (like 5 years+ long) and there are some guys that I have thought were really really really attractive and I may have liked them for a little bit. When it comes down to it, I would probably just chose the guy that I came with... but I really wouldn't know. Could I really stop myself from going to the one person that made me feel for a little bit of my life or the guy that I liked for a really long time but has an awesome girlfriend right now? I don't know. I am kind of sensible when I am drunk so I would probably (and I say probably because I am really not that sure) NOT go back to the one guy that broke my heart because to be honest, he was a jerk and I kinda don't like him at like all right now. I probably wouldn't fall into the arms of the guy that I used to like for a really long time because I just want to be his friend now. I don't want anything to happen with him. I just want to finally become his friend again.
As for the guys that I may actually fall into. There is a guy. He's nice. I don't know if I like him. I don't know if things will happen, but I absolutely love his personality and I know he would take care of me if he wasn't wasted himself. He's awesome, but just a little too outgoing for me. He has a bunch of girls and to be honest we're friends. I could see things happening, but I don't really know if I want things to happen or not (probably not... but he's probably the most likely guy I would go to). Then there is another guy. The guy who rejected me when I tried to dance with him. SO embarrassing by the way and a total confidence killer. Haha, I took a chance and got shot down, not really something I want to try again... but I would love to get to know him more if I had the chance.
You know, looking back, I have really really changed as a person but I will leave that to another blog post.
Till next time fellow non-socialites.
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