April 23rd 2012

Today marks what would have been our two year anniversary. I'm still hurt after what you did to me almost nine months ago. I'm not the same person I was when I was with you. Pain changes people and that's exactly what I have been dealing with constantly. The pain. The pain of losing you. I'm still dealing with it, this pain. It's bittersweet, this pain. I am sort of happy that I'm slowly getting over you. I'm a much stronger girl. I'm a much smarter girl and even more determined to meet the man of my dreams. Our relationship has taught me so much, about having a boyfriend and myself. I don't regret spending those 15 months with you. I don't regret any of our memories. You'll always be my first love and I'm glad we got to spend time together. I wish I had the strength to still be your friend but I'm not going to do that. I think you're happy now right? I don't want to ruin your almost 7 months with the girl you have now. What I do ask is that you never forget me because I know I'll never forget you. Haha, you'd laugh if you saw me now, laying here in bed and tearing up. I sound like I'm saying goodbye. Maybe that's what I'm doing. Maybe it'll be what I do on this day a year from now. Maybe it'll be what I do until I find my perfect someone. I hope you find your perfect someone. I hope one day our paths will cross again. Maybe not as a couple but as friends. I love you. I think I'll always love you for making me who I am today. Happy would be two years. I miss you. I miss you so much but I know I have to let go. I'm trying my hardest but sometimes I have to mourn what we had. I miss you. The pain is still there but I'm trying. I miss you.