Who's idea was it to give a senior in high school a major decision that will probably decide the rest of their lives?!
As you can probably tell, I am not happy about having to apply to college. I am seriously contemplating my entire life right now. Should I go to medical school? That's my major life decision. I really want to become a brain surgeon. It's one of my dreams ya know? WELL, the problem is, i'm not really into gore or blood. THAT IS A MAJOR PROBLEM! I've been telling a lot of people that I really want to become a brain surgeon... without telling them that I am afraid of blood. Well, I'm not really afraid, but I haven't had much experience with it. HOW THE HECK AM I SUPPOSED TO KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH MY LIFE?!
I really want to apply as an undecided major, but is it harder to get into medical school after that? I have no idea what to do. I'm an indecisive person and I fear that I will waste my money being in college with no idea of what I even want to do with my life. Anyone else having this problem? I'm sure I'm not the only one.
Thanks for reading. I shall go stress over this for a while now... either that or play Pokemon. (I think pokemon is going to win.)
Sunday, September 16, 2012
Monday, September 10, 2012
The purpose of this blog... or something like that
Hello, I would like to keep this blog running just for some side/random posts. I don't really feel bad enough to write posts about my anger anymore. My dependency on writing in order to vent has diminished quite a bit. I really hope that this blog won't die, that I won't forget about it. I still want to document some parts of my life. Hopefully, there will be happy parts. I really want to show this blog to my future husband so that he will know how I was as a teenager.
I think that will be something that will be significant for me. No one actually knows who I really am. No one can think the same way as me. No one actually understand me whole situation but at least with this, people can get a glimpse into who I really am, all the components that actually make me, me. I don't advertise this blog to people I actually know because I don't want anyone I know to find this. Only a selected few (of the people I actually know) know about my blog. Even fewer actually read it (actually no one reads this blog because I don't tag anything when I write my posts. I don't tell people when I update. I don't do anything but write, publish, and move on. A part of my life is within this blog and I want my life to stay as private as possible. As long as people don't actually know who I am behind the screen of this blog, then I'm totally fine with it.
I didn't make this blog to become popular. I didn't make this blog to seek attention from people. I made this blog for me. I made it during a really happy time in my life and it's stayed through some of the tougher times in my life. I really hope that whoever reads my blog will be able to gain strength from it, to learn from it, or to just get a glimpse into another person's life and realize that theirs is not as bad as they thought.
Maybe I will do a Dear future husband letter or something. How much would I have changed throughout the years? How much would I improve? How much more bad can I suffer through? How will I change as a person, friend, enemy, human being?
This is some pretty deep blogging I'm doing. Anyway, I am signing off for now. There is no guarantee that I will ever do another post again after this, not until I have some inspiration to write. There is no guarantee that this blog will be remembered, will be shown to my future husband. At least it will still be here on the internet for some random stranger to find one day.
Goodbye for now. See you all next time, if there is one.
I think that will be something that will be significant for me. No one actually knows who I really am. No one can think the same way as me. No one actually understand me whole situation but at least with this, people can get a glimpse into who I really am, all the components that actually make me, me. I don't advertise this blog to people I actually know because I don't want anyone I know to find this. Only a selected few (of the people I actually know) know about my blog. Even fewer actually read it (actually no one reads this blog because I don't tag anything when I write my posts. I don't tell people when I update. I don't do anything but write, publish, and move on. A part of my life is within this blog and I want my life to stay as private as possible. As long as people don't actually know who I am behind the screen of this blog, then I'm totally fine with it.
I didn't make this blog to become popular. I didn't make this blog to seek attention from people. I made this blog for me. I made it during a really happy time in my life and it's stayed through some of the tougher times in my life. I really hope that whoever reads my blog will be able to gain strength from it, to learn from it, or to just get a glimpse into another person's life and realize that theirs is not as bad as they thought.
Maybe I will do a Dear future husband letter or something. How much would I have changed throughout the years? How much would I improve? How much more bad can I suffer through? How will I change as a person, friend, enemy, human being?
This is some pretty deep blogging I'm doing. Anyway, I am signing off for now. There is no guarantee that I will ever do another post again after this, not until I have some inspiration to write. There is no guarantee that this blog will be remembered, will be shown to my future husband. At least it will still be here on the internet for some random stranger to find one day.
Goodbye for now. See you all next time, if there is one.
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