Sunday, February 23, 2014

Deep Ass Question #5

Well, would you look at that. Two posts in one day?? Oh em gee, what a miracle? haha. I crack myself up sometimes.

Here's the 5th installment of Deep Ass Questions brought to you buy a post on tumblr.
5. You can have one of the following two things. Which do you choose? Why? Love and Trust.

This is a really hard question to answer because I am a true romantic. I am in love with the idea of being in love. I want one of those deep, burning, and passionate loves that simmer down with age and just develops into a nice and awesome love.

*sigh* When it comes down to it, I would chose trust over love. What is love really without trust? Sure, you could love a person and it would be pretty good but if you don't trust a person, how could you really stop yourself from being paranoid and doubting everything. If there is no trust, it's not going to last. Love is really based on trust. You will eventually stop loving a person if you really don't trust them, am I right? The trust issues are just going to tear a relationship apart.

I would hate a relationship without trust. I am a girl and an insecure girl at that. If there is no trust then there is doubt, paranoia, sadness, pain, ect. and I would NOT be able to deal with that. If I think I love a guy but really all it's causing is pain like 24/7, I wouldn't be able to deal with that for the rest of my life.



There is no love without trust.

Tumblr Thoughts

So I stumbled on this quote while I was on tumblr and thought I would discuss it on this wonderful and terribly inactive blog. College is hard. College is stressful. College makes me want to scream in frustration.

The quote is:
“I wonder who’s arms would I run and fall into if I were drunk in a room with everyone I have ever loved”


I am going to change that last word to liked because I haven't really loved many people. This got me thinking though. I was kind of put into that situation recently. Just kinda... ok, not really... Yeah, totally not really. Ok, scratch that.

Anyways. If I was drunk, I would probably go around and just fall into the arms of each and every single guy. I mean when I am a bit tipsy, apparently I LOVE to hug people. If you know me, that's like a complete 180. I do not enjoy touching strangers or hugging in general. It was really weird because at a party I was totally just asking every guy who walked through the door to just give me a hug.

But really. In reality, if I was drunk I would hug every guy there. As for who I would just like follow around, that would really depend. I mean there are guys that I liked for a really really really long time (like 5 years+ long) and there are some guys that I have thought were really really really attractive and I may have liked them for a little bit. When it comes down to it, I would probably just chose the guy that I came with... but I really wouldn't know. Could I really stop myself from going to the one person that made me feel for a little bit of my life or the guy that I liked for a really long time but has an awesome girlfriend right now? I don't know. I am kind of sensible when I am drunk so I would probably (and I say probably because I am really not that sure) NOT go back to the one guy that broke my heart because to be honest, he was a jerk and I kinda don't like him at like all right now. I probably wouldn't fall into the arms of the guy that I used to like for a really long time because I just want to be his friend now. I don't want anything to happen with him. I just want to finally become his friend again.

As for the guys that I may actually fall into. There is a guy. He's nice. I don't know if I like him. I don't know if things will happen, but I absolutely love his personality and I know he would take care of me if he wasn't wasted himself. He's awesome, but just a little too outgoing for me. He has a bunch of girls and to be honest we're friends. I could see things happening, but I don't really know if I want things to happen or not (probably not... but he's probably the most likely guy I would go to). Then there is another guy. The guy who rejected me when I tried to dance with him. SO embarrassing by the way and a total confidence killer. Haha, I took a chance and got shot down, not really something I want to try again... but I would love to get to know him more if I had the chance.

You know, looking back, I have really really changed as a person but I will leave that to another blog post.

Till next time fellow non-socialites.